Post by tresha on Aug 22, 2008 21:13:47 GMT -6
Blech, urk and dammit!
Allright, I gotta whine a bit.
My cable is gone.
Bye-bye cable.
We started not being able to afford it sometime in the spring.
We had a rent subsidy that we lost and decided we'd rather keep the phone/internet than the cable.
But, but, but our lovely, local cable provider didn't shut off the cable to both tvs.
So, I suppose it was technically stealing cable, but it's not like *I* went out there and illegally jacked it or anything.
Anyway, apparently today the stupid, mean cable guy was installing someone else's and figured out ours was still functioning. He CUT the cables. (In the box)
CUT THEM.
There is no fucking way we can afford to get it turned back on.
There is no fucking way we can afford satellite thingy.
I've already been going through a worst depression than I have in fucking years. And I'm on the stupid freakin' medicine!
I barely sleep, especially at night.
TV had become for me, I suppose, my "drug of choice".
It was a lovely way to help time mosey on along.
I really like several sports, I like to watch political stuff and dammit, dammit, dammit! The conventions start next week.
There are countless dramas I liked watching on tv.
I've literally been wandering around, a bit lost, as it were.
This all sounds so ridiculous to me, I mean, I know it's fucking tv.
I don't care.
Sleep is horrible between the depression and the god-dammned PTSD rearing it's ugly head and there were times I could at least put the channel on a baseball game or something and sleep through it. (I like baseball, but sleeping through it is okay with me too.)
I can't get a job yet, cause I can't get off the damn painkillers from the neck/disk fusion surgery I had in June.
I feel like it's all caving in on me.
Shit!
Gonna go soak in a tub and read for a bit.
I'll check back in here later.
Allright, I gotta whine a bit.
My cable is gone.
Bye-bye cable.
We started not being able to afford it sometime in the spring.
We had a rent subsidy that we lost and decided we'd rather keep the phone/internet than the cable.
But, but, but our lovely, local cable provider didn't shut off the cable to both tvs.
So, I suppose it was technically stealing cable, but it's not like *I* went out there and illegally jacked it or anything.
Anyway, apparently today the stupid, mean cable guy was installing someone else's and figured out ours was still functioning. He CUT the cables. (In the box)
CUT THEM.
There is no fucking way we can afford to get it turned back on.
There is no fucking way we can afford satellite thingy.
I've already been going through a worst depression than I have in fucking years. And I'm on the stupid freakin' medicine!
I barely sleep, especially at night.
TV had become for me, I suppose, my "drug of choice".
It was a lovely way to help time mosey on along.
I really like several sports, I like to watch political stuff and dammit, dammit, dammit! The conventions start next week.
There are countless dramas I liked watching on tv.
I've literally been wandering around, a bit lost, as it were.
This all sounds so ridiculous to me, I mean, I know it's fucking tv.
I don't care.
Sleep is horrible between the depression and the god-dammned PTSD rearing it's ugly head and there were times I could at least put the channel on a baseball game or something and sleep through it. (I like baseball, but sleeping through it is okay with me too.)
I can't get a job yet, cause I can't get off the damn painkillers from the neck/disk fusion surgery I had in June.
I feel like it's all caving in on me.
Shit!
Gonna go soak in a tub and read for a bit.
I'll check back in here later.
